Yesterday I finally had to go down and do what every car owner dreads doing every year. Yep, go down to the DMV and renew the car tags. And since I had procrastinated it was to late to do it by mail. Now most everyone knows that the reason this is a dreaded event is the long slow moving lines. Yes it just wouldn't be right to have to pay the overly inflated property tax and the ever increasing registration fee without having to suffer through those long lines. So yesterday morning I was up early and headed down to the DMV just knowing I'd be there most of the day because it was the end of the month, and everyone else who had put it off to the last minute such as I had, would be there. Upon arriving there I took one last long drag on my cigarette, trying to be sure I had a sufficient amount of nicotine in my system to last till I finished. So I headed into the building and guess what. To my surprise but certainly not my dismay there wasn't an effing sole in there. That's right I walked right up to the desk, without waiting, handed the gal my proof of insurance and check and I was out of there in ten minutes. Well on my way back to the car I made sure to carefully check for on coming traffic. I figured with the good luck I just used up, I would surely be run over flat in the middle of the road becoming the fill for the pot hole that was there in the center of the road.
It's late and I'm getting tired so I'm off to bed. More tomorrow. Later
Married With Children once a funny TV show is now the best way to be if you live in America. For gods sake don't get caught being single. You know people who have decided not to get married and have kids, whether by choice or the fact that the asshole who once said there's someone out there for everyone didn't know what the hell he was talking about. It seems to be single is to be penalized especially when it comes to taxes or in this case tax cuts. If you are married and have children then you have it made, to the tune of I think about $400.00 per child. What does the average single person get, let's see, I think our total tax savings will be $51.00. WOW And we won't get into what tax cuts the richer will be getting. " Tax relief matters a lot to the average citizen here in America" says Bush. Gee thanks sir president what.... are we single people less then average citizens?!?!! I mean don't we have to deal with the troubled economy like everyone else, don't we pay taxes like everyone else. Oh wait, I guess you have to pay for your crazy spending somehow. This said I'm tempted to place the following ad.
Wanted single mother to marry compatibility not a necessity will marry for tax purposes only
Spent a lot of today anchored at my desk attempting to get some work done. Switching my attention back and forth between books and paperwork on the desk and figures and pictures on my computer screen. This went on for most of the day, although about one o'clock I decided I might go out and take a walk and snap a few more pic's. I had a plan that is until three o'clock when the back of my head exploded into pain that went down into my neck. It was the kind of headache where it's even a chore to turn your head. I know one thing if I find the fool who crept up and hit me in the back of the head with a baseball bat I'm going to return the favor. Ok so not really.
Two aspirin and a few hours later it started to subside somewhat and I was getting the ability to turn my head freely from side to side again. Though as I write this there are still remnants of it left. I think I might just give up for the night and try and get a good nights rest and start over again tomorrow. Later
It's Memorial Day, well what's left of it. A holiday they call it, but sometimes I have a hard time thinking of this day as a holiday. To me the word holiday congers up images of joyous and happy times and events. But this is a day in which we are supposed to remember those who have gone before us, a day that was originally set aside to honer the fallen men and women of the military who gave their lives fighting for their country. So yeah, I have a hard time thinking of this as a holiday. Not sure if this makes any sense or not, but that's just the way I feel and as the old saying goes to each their own.
It is a day that usually involves a trip to at least one cemetery, to place flowers and ponder memories. I made that trip myself earlier this afternoon to put flowers on my dad's grave. Then spent some time over at my brothers visiting with him. Thus far that's been the extent of my holiday. Later
The picture taking drive I took into the country last week was actually a drive along the route we would take to get to the rock quarry I used to work at. This is a picture of the hog farm we used to have to drive past to get to the turn off for the quarry. Believe it or not this hog farm at times played an important role in the drives to work, especially in the summer time. You see in the summer time they used to like to start work at the ungodly hour of 6:30am. Now I used to ride to work with one of my fellow workers there. And since I was the passenger, there were times when I was not quite fully awake on the drive to work. This is where the hog farm came into play. For if you weren't alert enough to get the window rolled up as you approached the hog farm, you would definitely be fully awake by the time you got past it. I'm here to tell you it is true what they say about the not so pleasant strong oder emitted from a hog farm. If the wind was out of the right ( or wrong if you will ) direction you could smell this place 5 miles away at the quarry. What I have yet to figure out is how the farmer and his family could stand it, his house was just beyond these barns at the top of the picture. Ahhh those were the days......not!! Later
It's the middle of the Memorial Day weekend and people ask me what my plans are. My answer is the same as it is for most holidays, probably nothing. To me it's just another day, I really don't treat them as anything special. Don't really know why, maybe I just don't care, maybe I just haven't figured out how to make it something special. Or if the truth be known in the past whenever I tried to make holiday's special something would invariably creep up and turn the day to shit. So now I don't plan anything special, I just let the day happen.
Actually I didn't even realize that this was a holiday weekend till it was almost on me. But I think the reason for that goes to fact that I no longer have an everyday go to job. Therefore I no longer have the much anticipated extra day off to look forward to and remind me of the impending holiday.
Ok so I'm off to let this day happen. I think I'll head out to do some work in the yard and soak up some more sun. Later
A little earlier this evening I was sitting here trying to do some work when I noticed everything just starting to run together in my mind. That and it was fairly warm here today and my room was getting warm and stuffy. Didn't take long for me to decide it was time for a break, so I lit a cigarette and headed out to sit on the front porch and try to clear my head. It was rather nice, the sun had just dropped beyond the horizon yet there was still plenty of daylight left. So I just sat there taking it all in. Watching the cars go aimlessly up and down the road heading where-ever it is you head to on a Friday night. Looking across the street at the little kids trying to shoot the basketball ( which was half their size ) into the basket, only to get it 3/4's of the way up and have it come back down and nearly knock them over as they tried to catch it. Looking at the sea of red created by the freshly blooming roses, and the birds as they chased the insects through the grass trying to get that last little snack before darkness fell. Then it dawned upon me, I had achieved what I went out there to do, for the only thing running through my mind now were these wonderful sights before me.
Now I'm back sitting in front of the computer again, but I just don't know if I want to dive back into working again. So I think I'll go take a quick cool shower and come back and......well I don't know yet, I'll figure that out after the shower. Later
The other night I said I was feeling tired, well I must have been because I didn't wake up this morning until nine and it's rare that i sleep past eight. I need to do a better job of getting some decent rest whether I want to or not. So anyhow after getting up drinking my coffee and checking my e-mail I decided to do something completely different today. Step away from this computer of mine for a while and do some other things. I've been starting to notice that I am becoming way to comfortable just sitting in front of this screen. Yes I do need to be in front of the computer to get work done, but it is way to easy to become distracted and before you know it you are no longer working and wondering where the day went.
After getting dressed I headed outside to do some things that needed doing. I mowed the grass, all of it, though I had the perfect opportunity to put some of it off till later. Half way through my mowing the lawn-mower died on me. Yes, it's out of gas, so I grab the gas can to fill the mower and guess what. Yep, the damned thing's empty. It would have been soooo easy to just say I'll finish it later when I get more gas. Instead I hopped in the car went and got more gas, came back and finished the mowing. And after eating a hot-dog for lunch I was right back out again this time to wash the car.
Ok ok i admit it, I did cheat a little, in-between the mowing and the car washing I did peek to see if I had gotten any e-mail. But that's all I did honest.
After i finished my work I showered and took a drive into the country just to get away and snap a few pic's.
I'm glad I did this. I have found myself recently not really wanting to leave the house, unless I had to of course. It actually felt pretty damned good to get out and about for a change.
Yes it's true here we go again, CONDITION ORANGE. Terror alert, keep an eye out, look above ,look below and look all around. Oh and what's that in that tree, yes, it's that dastardly terrorist squirrel with a mouth full of "dirty" nuts just waiting to drop them on me as I pass under the tree.
I know shit happens, has happened and it really isn't something to be made light of. And my intention is not really to make light of anything that has happened or god forbid anything that may happen in the future. That is not the point of this post, instead my question is why are we raising the terror alert level. Is something really going to happen or are they ( the government ) just trying to keep us jumpy so they can keep up the war on terror. They say they are raising the level because of intelligence information they have gathered. Now that's a good piece of information to keep secret isn't it. It's like we have reason to believe you will be blown away, however we don't trust you enough to like tell you where, when or even how this event may take place. To me it is just common sense if you know something bad is going to happen that you share this important information. Ok there's where I'm going wrong, using the phrase common sense when talking about the government. Some of you may recognize this from a previous post i did the last time they went to the orange level, I just felt like mentioning it again though nothings really changed.
So I am going to do just as I did the last time. I'm going to go about my daily living without worrying myself sick over it. I mean why worry when the powers that be don't think we are important enough to know just what might be going to happen to us.
Enough ranting I'm not even sure if I'm making sense now. Later
RAYMI'S rolling again, if you don't think so go take a look.
Oops I almost forgot to make a post today. On second thought I guess since it's 12:01am technically I did forget to make one. Now just how in the hell could I do that? Humm, let's see, could be having my nose stuck in some reading that was suggested to me by a friend, as well as gathering some materials for a project I am going to work on. Combine that with a trip to the grocery store and paying a visit to my brother, and it made for a slightly busy day.
Right now I am starting to get indications that my pushing the sleep envelope is catching up with me. One such indication is I get that dazed deer in the headlights feeling. But the biggest tell tale sign of super tiredness is the ringing in my ears. The tireder I get the louder the ringing is. And right now they are ringing so loud I don't know whether to answer the phone or see if someone is at the front door. So with that said, I'm off to bed. More tomorrow. Later.
Just after finishing my post last night I was sitting here when suddenly a loud bang rang out followed shortly by two more. The first thought that sprang into my mind was shit someone's having a damned shoot-out right outside my house. Ok it was my second thought, my first was to dive to the floor seeking cover. Instead I sat half froze with an uneasy anticipation waiting for the window pane to shatter or holes to appear in the wall as bullets passed through and whizzed through the room. As I waited for what I knew was sure to happen the bangs continued some in rapid succession, other with pauses between them. After mustering up a small amount of courage I went to the front door and started to ease it open to look out and see if I could tell what was happening. Just as I opened the door there was another volley of bangs, making me believe that maybe this wasn't such a smart move after all. Still I continued to open the door wanting to find out what this mini war was all about. As I inched myself out the open door there was another bang, only this time out of the corner of my eye I caught a glimpse of a bright light up in the sky. Suddenly I knew just what all this commotion was. Armed with this new found knowledge I stepped out onto the front porch for a better look. And sure enough it wasn't a gang battle nor was it a disgruntled anybody, but rather it was some people a couple houses up from where live shooting off fireworks, so all my worry was for nothing, or was it. Sad to say but in this day and age it's better to be safe then sorry. Oh, just as I was heading back into the house I saw two police cars racing up the street, so I wasn't the only one thinking as I did.
I'm back from my graduation attendance get-away. As graduations go it wasn't to bad. Still with the boring speeches and what not, this is not on the top of my really exciting things to do list. Add to it a headache I got just as we arrived and a fun time was had by all. Well almost.
Afterward there was the normal festivities where upon the graduate opened his gifts and money laden cards, oh yeah and cake. Can't forget about the cake. But then there's always a few people attending that I do not feel comfortable around. If you are not always in talking to them and answering their questions they get upset. One time I had slipped outside to smoke a cigarette when one of them comes out quipping," what are you trying to do, be unsociable?" I so wanted to answer, why yes as a matter of fact I am, but I didn't. All in all things went fairly well, including me not saying anything stupid for my sister's sake. After finally getting to bed about midnight we got up had breakfast visited a little more and headed back home.
Some of the group I was with claiming their good seats. Of course we had to arrive more then an hour ahead of the start so as to get good seats. As you can tell by the abundant amount of empty seats around I guess you could say we succeeded.
It's been another of those gray gloomy days here today, with rain falling off and on most of the day. To me it just seems harder to feel energetic when it's like this. It's always so much better when there is some sun shine.
Getting ready to take a short trip tomorrow. It's not much really, not like I'm flying cross country or anything like that. Though a long trip would be nice right about now. I am just going up the road a little ways to attend a graduation. But unfortunately that means spending the night with relatives, yeah another one of those dreaded family get togethers. Ouch that makes two in a weeks time, gawd I hope I survive. Well at least the weathers is nicer out now and I won't freeze standing outside smoking a cigarette. Wish me luck, I'll let you know how it went Sunday. That's it for now. Later
So yeah I did go out and work in the garden, but I didn't stay out as long as I had originally planned. Part of the reason I was heading out in the first place was to get a little more sun. Well guess what, as soon as I got outside here came the clouds and no more sunshine.....surprise, surprise huh.
During the past week or so of turbulent weather quite a few people have contacted me hoping I was doing ok following those storms. It has occurred to me that I haven't really gotten around to thanking you all. So to all of you I send out a big heart felt THANK YOU!!!! Later
When I first started this blog I really didn't intend for it to be or become a political commentary forum. But I guess I did kind of crack the door open just a little with my earlier post dealing with the Dixie Chicks. Well yesterday Gonzosc 1 left a comment asking what the double standard was that I was referring to. When I originally wrote the post the point I was trying to make was that we profess to have and even protect the right to free speech, yet when someone speaks out they are chastised for it.
However after reading his question it got me to re-thinking my previous post, and perhaps I was wrong in calling this a double standard. After all when you get right down to it are not the people criticizing them also exercising their right to free speech.
Therefore I now stand as having corrected my view on this point. Instead of looking at it as double standard I now look at it as more of a circle. Where anyone who chooses to do so can hop in and add their comments, beliefs and opinions with the possibility of no end in sight. Hence the circle. But then that's what makes free speech so great.
Ok I'm through dancing around on the soapbox, which is why I tend to shy away from politically orientated posts. Now I'm getting ready to go out and play farmer JG and tend to my garden. That's it for now. Later
Ok so I'm happy to report that things are better on the motivation front today. I've actually gotten some things done, though not as much as I wanted to. Oh well keep trudging along I guess. Shortly I'm going out to do some work outside so I can catch some sun and fresh air.
Here is an article I found on my internet providers homepage. Appears to me to be the type of woman to avoid at all costs or it might cost you all.
(Kansas City, MO) -- A Kansas City woman is facing criminal charges for allegedly trying to castrate her boyfriend. Thirty-six-year-old Jean McLean is charged with unlawful use of a weapon and assault. Prosecutors say officers were called to a home near 18th and Laurel early Monday morning after Charles Clark allegedly woke up to find McLean with a knife to his genitals. Clark told police that McLean told him she was going to cut "it" off since "it" had been with another woman. He was able to escape uninjured. McLean is being held in the Jackson County jail on $10-thousand bond. Meanwhile, Clark says he would consider taking his girlfriend back if she would get some counseling.
Copyright 2003 Metro Networks Communications Inc., A Westwood One Company
Am I wrong or does it sound like more then just one person in this relationship is in need of counseling. That's it for now. Later Posted by J_E_G 4:21 PM
Tuesday, May 13, 2003
Woke up this morning to the sounds of thunder and rain falling, anymore what else is new. Fortunately it didn't last long and the sun is shining now.
Today has been one of those days, there is so much I want to try and get done, only thing lacking today is motivation. No particular reason I can figure out why, I guess it's just one of those days. I just can't seem to focus or concentrate on any one given thing today. Spent some of the day then sitting around just thinking, which is not usually a good thing for me to do. These are times when I can think myself into a hole so deep it makes the Grand Canyon look like just a small crack in the earth. But so far I've been able to keep from doing that.
If you haven't figured it out yet I have decided to take this day off. One of the benefits of attempted self-employment......it doesn't take much to convince the boss you just don't feel like doing anything today. That's it for now. Later
I'm sitting here having just finished two grilled cheese sandwiches for lunch. Hummm grilled cheese seems to be becoming a major staple in my diet lately. That's ok they are easy to fix and I like them, and that's what matters.
Even though all those tornado producing storms missed us last week, we still got enough rain out of the deal to make the grass grow out in the yard. So that's what I spent my morning doing, out trudging behind the lawn-mower again. Thanks mother nature.
Yesterday we had a small family get together at my brother's house for mother's day. And I must say it went fairly well, something that doesn't always happen. Usually I get around them and the questions start, questions I either don't have the answers to or just plain don't want to answer. This is usually followed by their opinions on what I am doing, why am I doing things the way I am, and always how I can do things so much better. Thankfully I was able to avoid these type of discussions yesterday, and everyone seemed to have somewhat of a good time. At least until the next get together.
Got some other things I still want to get accomplished today, so I better get on it. That's it for now. Later
Once again Mother's Day has rolled around and once again I've done what I seem to do every year. Last night I was sitting around when it dawned on me I hadn't gotten anything for my mom yet for mother's day. So I hopped in the car and off to the store I went, not knowing for sure as yet what I was going to get. After wandering around the store a bit I decided on getting a plant of some sort. Looking the plants over trying to decide, which wasn't hard since as late as it was most had been picked over. I finally found one which looked nice and got it. And again I've slipped in just under the wire getting a mother's day present. That's it for now.
SIGNS SIGNS EVERYWHERE......A SIGN Posted by J_E_G 9:16 PM
Friday, May 09, 2003
Today has been a nice serene day compared to the latest round of strong storms and tornados that rolled through the state again last night. Although I'm happy to say that even though a tornado packing storm passed by about 15 miles south of us, we didn't get so much as a drop of rain. However there were others to the east of where I live that weren't as fortunate.
Most of today was what you might term as uneventful ( ok just another way of saying boring ). I did end up having to drive my mom to a physical therapy appointment. She swears she can drive herself, but anyone who might ride with her would understand why I do the driving. After dropping her off I usually have a hour to kill, so I headed off to the edge of town to take some more photos. Ended up at the river hoping to find some special shots but I'm afraid all I got were just simple shots of the river. But while walking along the river bank I did manage to stumble onto the infamous concrete graveyard. That's it for now. Later
Blogger strikes again, I had a post all written earlier and hit the post button and I got an action canceled message. And of course the post was nowhere to be found. Frustrated with that at the time I said the hell with it and just posted those two pictures.
Anyhow the previous post I had written went kind of like this. I was sitting trying to figure out what to write when I thought to myself at least I do have this blog to write on. Not that long ago I never would have dared to do anything like this. Bing said it best in one of the first comments she left on here. When she said she liked my audioblog because I sounded so shy and surprised that anyone would come here. Well what she said was true. Through a lot of my life I had self-esteem issues and I used to be really shy, though I think I have somewhat finally shed my shell. And yes when I first started this blog I would have been shocked to think anyone would come here.
To make a long story short I'm glad I started this blog, it has helped me. This and some of the very special friendships I have developed through interacting on the internet. Some of whom I've met, while others I still look forward to meeting. That's it for now. Later
Today was one of those nothing really happened days. Though I did wake up to sunshine and blue skies for a change. And it was nice to have a bright sunny day for a change. However it seems as though its only going to turn out to have been a one day reprieve, as the forecasters are saying it could be another round of rough and sever storms again tomorrow.
Right now I'm putting my system to the test. I have a CD in that I'm listening to, downloading more music and working on this post.
That's about all I can think to say at the moment, so I'm off to burn that music onto a CD. Then maybe I will do something different for a change and get to bed before 2 in the morning..........or not.
Here is one of those pictures that I like to call mystery shots. What I was thinking of, hell what I was even aiming at I really don't know. Later
It's 12:45 in the morning and I'm sitting here kinda of tired yet not wanting to give up on this day. Sitting just thinking, thinking about things going on lately, like the storms which seem to be the center of the last few posts I've made. Then my thoughts seem to turn to a sort of foolishness in that tired punch drunk sort of way. I went ahead and wrote them down and posted here on myCreativeness......Or Not page. But I warn you to keep in mind the state of mind I was in when I wrote this. Later. Posted by J_E_G 1:20 AM
Tuesday, May 06, 2003
Its at it again, natures wrath. We've already had round one roll through with round two sitting out there just waiting to pounce upon us. And of course everyone has the storm jitters now, understandably so I guess. The way I look at it is to just stay ready to move if need be, but not to worry about it. After all natures going to do what nature wants to and nothing I do is going to change that.
One of the photos I took as round one approached. I sat here for a while in quiet thought and looking at the photos I had taken and it occurred to me just how incredibly effing ironic nature can be. But thats a whole other story for another time. That's it for now. Later
Today was a pretty nice day considering the turbulent conditions in our part of the world yesterday. So nice in fact I just couldn't resist getting out and doing some more yard work that I just love doing. Ok Ok, so I got out and did some yard work that needed doing. So I got out the weed-eater and commenced to knock down the weeds that were threatening to consume the fence in the back yard. After that I came in and did up some laundry that also needed to be done. I am not ready to become a nudist yet.....well actually I don't think the world is ready for me to become a nudist. You put this together with doing some work on line and you have the extent of my day. Exciting huh.
Sometimes I think to myself I need to get a better life. But then I think that's not really it. What I really need is to live in a town/city that has a life. Yes someday it will be goodbye small town USA and off to some place that offers something more then going to the local Wal-Mart as the highlight of things to do. That's it for now. Later
About 5 or 6 days ago I made a posting dealing with tornado's, and I did it in a jovial manner. I don't know sometimes maybe it's easier to deal with things in a joking manner rather then face it head on. However something happened today that made the joking disappear, yes reality hit. It didn't hit right in the area where I live but close enough to bring reality come crashing down. there were at least 4 tornado's hit in or around the Kansas City area.
These are some photos of the tornado's that hit the Kansas City area. And these were strong tornado's. Imagine driving into an area and seeing cars falling out of trees, large buildings and homes that use to be there a second ago totally leveled and gone. So really my point is I guess is that no matter how we choose to deal with them tornado's are really no joking matter. As I said this hit about 100 miles away from where I live, but could have easily hit right here where I live. Go to this website to see some video footage shot of these tornado's. Later
The Dixie Chicks a perfect example of freedom of speech at work.......as long as what you say conforms with what we think. AHHH the joys of double standards!!!
I don't post this because I like the Dixie Chicks, I don't really listen to them as a matter of fact. But rather I post this to kind of point out the double standards we live with at times. Later
A short post today. I don't know if I slept on it wrong, but my right shoulder has really been bothering me the last couple of days. And I just can't find a comfortable position to type in and be able to concentrate on writing. Might try to write something later, if not, maybe tomorrow.
I tell you sometimes this blogging experience can be something else. I pulled my blog up around 9pm tonight and lo and behold my photos were down. So I thought oh great the hosting service must be down. But wait I had just come from a site that uses the same hosting service and their photos were up. I thought it time to investigate this strange occurrence and logged into my photo account. And there it was right before me, a big red warning telling me that my account was generating excessive traffic. Imagine that, my humble site generating excessive traffic. Well after rolling around on the floor laughing at this aspect, I did some further checking. And what I saw next was simply mind boggling, according to them, to this point today, I had used 69,436.84MB's of bandwidth. I thought WTF how in the hell can I use that much bandwidth having only gotten 29 hits to the site at that point. And besides on my best day I had only used 15MB's of bandwidth. Anyhow to shorten this up they must have finally realized their screwup because before I could contact them about this my photos were up again.
69,436MB of bandwidth imagine that!!! HA HA HA now that is funny. Thats it for now Later Posted by J_E_G 9:59 PM
Thursday, May 01, 2003
Was out roaming around yesterday taking some new photos to post when I happened onto this crossing. So I decided to shot a couple of pic's along the tracks.
But shortly after shooting these shots I decided to get out of there. For the idea of hopping the next slow moving freight and riding it to where-ever it took me and exploring the adventures the journey would present, was becoming far to compelling. Am I alone, or has anyone else ever felt this way? You know, just saying the hell with it and going where-ever you ended up and experiencing whatever there is to be experienced on said journey.